Work in progress (by Mrs. Happy)
Howdy, bloggers and fans thereof! It's Mrs. Happily Employed, bringing you another guest blog while Curt washes dishes and cooks me dinner! That's right—things are gonna change around here, now that I'm a bread-winner. I'm being a little facetious here, but quite seriously I'm more than a little freaked out by some potentially monumental changes. You see, for the last couple of months I believe I have been engaging in somewhat of a "nesting" process, focusing primarily on improving domestic habits, cooking/eating healthier, getting into good physical shape, maintaining spiritual growth, and adhering to a reasonable budget. I'm nearing the ripe child-bearing age of 30, and it seems that we (particularly I) have been adjusting our lives in preparation for that future event. However, my Happy Husband and I both know that I need to work for a little while longer, both for increased financial security and to better establish my career before the inevitable break in employment when motherhood ensues.
On one hand, the acquisition of this job is a wonderful gift that enables us to move ahead with our responsible plans and break the uncomfortable stalemate we have been facing. On the other hand, I must now drastically shift my mind-set from that of a comfortable, cultivating housewife to that of a tired, stressed, busy career woman, newly committed to the mental well-being of a whole new set of needy people, and in a capacity that is completely foreign to me. I must admit that since I accepted the job, I've been incredibly anxious about the whole idea.
But here's what makes it okay:
- The proud and loving sound of my supportive husband's voice over the phone when I first told him the news.
- The congratulations from friends and family, especially those who have been praying for this very outcome.
- Celebratory free meals!
- The relief that we will experience with more income, and the satisfaction I will have in contributing to our funds and future.
- The knowledge and contentment that I will again use my God-given gifts to help others and grow further into the person He created me to be.
- The verse that I came across in my Bible reading this very morning: "When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?"—Psalm 56:3-4
So though my feeble human mind insists on freaking out once in awhile, I know in my heart that I am deeply loved and supported, that I am created to love and support others, and this job will be a reflection of those truths on many levels. I'll just have to do my nesting on the side.
