Another message from Baby Happy
I suppose grownups hold a fairly low opinion of a preborn child's knowledge, understandably I suppose. While it is true that I lack years of life experience and formal education, I am not wholly ignorant in all areas. For instance, Daddy tells me every day that Mama loves me. He scarcely needs to remind me, as her love surrounds me constantly. He also tells me daily that Jesus loves me. I am not sure why feels the need to remind me of this so often, since I know this more deeply than I know anything else. I detect in his tone the sense that he may actually be reassuring himself of Jesus' love as much as he is trying to teach me. I suppose the statement "Jesus loves you" has value regardless of the speaker's motivations. Daddy also tells me he himself loves me. I have no direct proof of this particular declaration as of yet; still, I do not doubt it. He has not led me astray about anything so far, and I know that Mama certainly loves him fiercely. If nothing else, that tells me I should love him also, and I think I do.
I also have quite a strong feeling that life as I know it will not continue forever. Perhaps this is an elementary idea from an adult's perspective; it is mind-boggling from mine. I revel in my current existence, but I do not think it will, or even should, last forever. As I grow, I more and more come to think that something lies…beyond. What that something is and what beyond might mean I cannot say. I have ideas about it, though they serve only to convince me of my imagination's inadequacy. I confess to feeling not a little anxiety about my future, but I hold to the conviction that Mama, Daddy, and Jesus will not leave me when the time comes for me to move on, and that my relationships with each of them will grow even stronger when I cross into the next life.
So I am not altogether devoid of discernment. I comprehend more every day, and I wait with eager longing for something I do not yet understand but which will assuredly reveal more to me—and of me—than I in my current state can possibly dream.
